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The hurt... so much. I shake and cry, cry and shake... how can my utter love and devotion mean absolutely nothing. SO I will hurt and stew... I will try to understand and I will try to be strong. I want you, I liked my life with you.

You might be able to not pretend to care anymore but I can't pretend not to care about you. This one way mirror isn't as one dimensional as you perceive it to be.

Silence

I dream about you all the time... I am always trying to find you and often I never do.

I dream about you all the time and you will never know.

I can only imagine you dream about me too. Perhaps the reason I can't find you is because you steal me away. Every once in a precious while, I do find you... Then I feel so warm, so free, so lost, so cold. But it is too late... I hold you here in me, always. Again, I open the doors of my dreams. Maybe tonight is a night I will find you... Or wander in the beautiful desert, never alone but always searching. Peaceful chaos... to exist together would rip the world asunder.

Do you know, I dream about you all the time but I can't find you anymore? Are you looking for me too?

I don't want to find you in reality though. Just a nice oasis to remind me of the existence of the unknown.